we were meant to live for something more / have we lost ourselves / somewhere we live inside

Friday, October 7, 2005 02:52 p.m.

this will be my last entry here... i dun want to use this online blog anymore cuz it brings back memories and i wanna move on.

ill never feel the same way abt you ever again. it was the second and the LAST time. whatever you do in life from now on is no longer any of my business. i do not want a third time. bye.

Friday, September 30, 2005 03:25 a.m.

only you and no one else.

Friday, September 30, 2005 03:08 a.m.

once again i cant get to sleep. looking at our photo brings back so much memories and it hurts knowing things will no longer be the same. there's so much i wish i could say to you now but i know it wont make any difference. i miss you so much. i dun want to move on. its hard accepting the truth. i want to disappear from this place. i dun want to face the truth and have to see you or her cuz all the memories keep coming back to me.

the world is never a fair place.am i getting back what i did to you?

Friday, September 30, 2005 12:38 a.m.

since that is what you want, ill give u what u want... ill try...

will my life be filled with regrets?....

Friday, September 30, 2005 12:28 a.m.

i want to go watch the circus show "Quidam"... but i doubt anyone wants to go watch... :(

im so so tired now n my headache is slowly coming back again.. just had my shower after having track training, dance pract and cheerleading pract. and now i got to go study for my econs test on sat..
i hate my life right now...i just wanna lock myself in my room.

im thinking of closing my blog down..

Thursday, September 29, 2005 10:16 a.m.

ive having a terrible headache now!!!!!!!!!i just woke up 5 mins ago n it was my headache that woke me up. my head is throbbing very badly and the pain is driving me nuts..

Thursday, September 29, 2005 02:05 a.m.

just got back from jogging awhile ago... i wanted to destress but it doesnt seem to have worked though i feel better physically now after getting some exercise. i feel so stupid n dumb.. i failed my english language test while everyone else did so well.. sigh.. :( and after getting back my e lang paper, i had a soci test after that n by then i was super demoralised already... n seeing her there didnt help make things any better..

one moment im happy, and the next moment im feeling down again.. this feeling really sucks...

tmr is gonna be a tiring day.. ive got track training from 6 to 730pm then ive got to rush back to hall for dance practice from 8 to 10pm cuz ive got a performance on 11 oct, which is in less than 2 wks time.. and when everything is done, i got to study for my econs test on sat.. :( what if i fail all my tests?? cuz im dumb, stupid and lazy...... the only thing im looking forward to is dance pract tmr..

anyway i rejected the post as chingay dance ic already... but if they really cant find anyone else then maybe ill take it up. And just 5 mins ago, i got approached again by another 2 ppl to join Sheares Production Ticketing Committee.. i think ill most probably join it since the workload for this comm isnt too much.

"if you love someone, le him/her go"
i just cant understand it.

Sunday, September 25, 2005 11:43 p.m.

my life is just so boring now.. ive nothing to look forward to in life. all i do everyday is attend lessons, come back to hall, go online, go down for dinner, come back to my room to do tutorials and attend meetings and try to study if i have time and thats about it.. i hardly ever get to step out of campus on a weekday unless i go out to a nearby shopping mall to buy groceries. i havent been to town in a long long time and ive completely no idea what movies are out on the screens now. my life has really changed alot ever since i entered uni and started staying in hall.

today when i got back to hall, i just suddenly felt so stressed.. my heart felt very heavy n the feeling was just so uncomfortable. its totally different from being at home where im more carefree.. but the only thing is that i cant seem to study at home..
maybe its because i have tests this wk, reports to write n together with blk activities that i have to help out with that is making me feel stressed now. i know this week is gonna be a tiring week n im really gonna have to manage my time well. And there's nothing for me to look forward to to help make my time past by faster. sigh.

Friday, September 23, 2005 11:46 p.m.

im just glad that hall activites are keeping me busy so i dun have the time to think of certain stuff...i shall just continue to bury myself in hall activities n studies to keep u off my mind..
i wonder whether ill ever break down one day when i can no longer cope with studies, hall activites n everything else... i know if i take up the position as chingay dance ic, ill be stretching myself very thin but at least i wont have the time to think about you and ur "life". should i take up the challenge???

i know that ull never be there for me anymore.

Friday, September 23, 2005 09:08 p.m.

i need to talk to my parents urgently now!! but i cant cuz they are still away. why why why must they be away when i need to talk to them.... :( what should i do........... i cant talk to anyone else...

should i go for swimming training tmr? im feeling so tired n lethargic now.. i dun want to swim 3km!!
haiz got to go collect $15 now from my blk residents. sigh.

Wednesday, September 21, 2005 01:59 a.m.

argh stressed!!! my hall ppl keep approaching me to join committees!! within one day, ive been approached by 2 ppl to join health n fitness comm, and chingay main comm to be the dance ic... n just 2 days back i was approached to join sheares external relations comm... ive already turned down ERC n i think ill turn out health n fitness too... but now i dun know whether to join the chingay main comm cuz if i do, ill have to give up either swimming or track or maybe even both!! ahhhh... n i also wont get to take part in funkamania cuz the competition is very close to chingay... n my december holidays will be eaten up cuz of dance practices.... how how how............ im already in blk comm, dance n cheerleading... but it isnt enough for me to be able to stay on next year.. i need to join at least one more activity.... hall life really sucks away ur outside life from u... :(

Tuesday, September 20, 2005 02:37 a.m.

i once thought u would always be here for me... but apparently not... i was wrong..

i know ive lost u to her already..

Tuesday, September 20, 2005 02:10 a.m.

i know ive been replaced by her in ur heart...

Friday, September 16, 2005 01:00 p.m.

IM TIRED!!! :(

finally buaya week has ended.. so now i dun have to spend money n time buying or making stuff for people.. but i still enjoyed it! Was really touched by 2 ppl who played n sang a song for me last night at the end of everything.. cant remember the title of the song now cuz im too tired to think.. i only got 1 and a half hrs of slp last night!!!! cuz by the time me and the rest of blk comm finished cleaning up everything, it was already 130am.. then i had to go study cuz i had a test this morning(which i screwed up) so i only went to bed at 530am and i had to get up at 7am for my test was at 8am!!!

sometimes i wished i never knew... but yet i dun want to be kept in the dark... the truth always hurts. someone was telling me that i muz really let my heart move on and not juz say it only but its really not easy.
anyway there's nothing that i can do about it now cuz its too late.. n besides i dun know what to do either.. i know i have to accept it no matter what.. i just dun want to see that person's face but its not possible..
i hate thinking about all this! if only i could just disappear...

off to sleep now....................

Tuesday, September 13, 2005 02:27 p.m.

i just cannot accept the fact that you moved on so quickly...
was it all just a bag of lies that u told me in the past...

Tuesday, August 16, 2005 02:24 a.m.

i wish there was someone whom i could talk to about my problems n stuff... but sadly there isnt anyone whom i feel comfortable enough to talk to. school work is beginning to stress me. and im so busy with hall activities.. Inter-block games are starting this wed n im the cheerleading IC. ive got to choreograpgh dance steps, get cheers, music n outfit. and the latest addition to my stress is.. ive been elected to join my block committee. i just wanna lock myself up in my own room right now n not bother abt cheerleading stuff!! and just 5 mins ago, i just got approached to be my hall's dance IC! im definitely rejecting that position cuz ill just die if i take it up!!! HELP!!!

Monday, August 8, 2005 10:11 p.m.

im just so so happy!! cuz all our efforts paid off!! Sheares Hall won 4 awards for Rag this year!!! we won best float award, best design award, best presentation award & the Dance Centennial Award which is based solely on our dance itself!! And the centennial award is something that ill only get to win once in my whole life time cuz the next time they have this award again, ill be 118 years old!!! haha... all the raggers were really so happy, screaming away n all of us were tearing!! despite all the long and tiring dance practices we had, i really enjoyed myself and have so many wonderful memories.. it was really worth it!
Thanks to all those who went down to support us!! And thanks alot EEKERS, espcially zaihao for all the support! i heard u shout my name just before the dance began!! haha

hmmm got quite abit to update but im kinda busy now so ill update another time!

Saturday, August 6, 2005 12:02 a.m.

tomorrow's(today) the day that all the raggers have been working so hard for.. im beginning to get nervous.. i really hope everything turns out well!! someone said today that no matter whether we win or lose, he's very sure we're all gonna cry after they announce the results. haha..
i gotta wake up at 415am!!! which means i only have abt 4 hrs to sleep b4 ill have to wake up.. i hope i wont be too tired.

Monday, August 1, 2005 01:40 p.m.

im so so tired!!! my body just cant take take it anymore! im waking up at 630am every morning and then from 10am to 11pm, ive got dance practice. And by the time i actually sleep its already 2am!! my eye bags are really noticeable now and im still trying to recover from my cold. ARGh!!! im looking forward to RAG cuz its what all the raggers have been working so hard for for the past months but yet i cant wait for it to be over cuz i really need my rest!! but then again, i dun want it to come so fast cuz we still need more time to practice to win the Chancellor Shield. And im scared to hear the results cuz i know whats gonnna happen if we dun win. im having mixed feelings about it now.
ok i gtg now for dance prac. ill try to update more often.

Friday, July 29, 2005 02:35 p.m.

i finally got my laptop yesterday! :) Hall life so far has been good... managed to join in some of the hall orientation acivities even with rag dance practices the whole day..

bidding for my modules and planning my timetble is so stressful!! ARGH!! i have to keep going online to check the bids.. so troublesome!! i really hope ill be able to get the modules i want..

and ive finally found someone who is willing to help me decorate my room for me!! haha..

Sunday, July 17, 2005 05:01 p.m.

im here to notify all of u people who read my blog that i wont be updating in a long time to come cuz im gonna be rather busy from tmr onwards.. ill be having dance practices from 10am to 10pm, mon to fri till 6 aug..

anyway all these dance practices n missing meals is making me lose weight BUT!! my chest is becoming flatter too!! ahhhhh thats not what i need.. im already flat enough! haha...

Sunday, July 10, 2005 06:52 p.m.

ok since everyone has been pestering me to update, i shall do so now..

i finally took off my braces today!!!! :) my teeth feels very smooth now without all those metal stuff in my mouth.

anyway my life now revolves around rag dance practice.. im going down everyday to train n i only get home about 1am. oh n ill be staying in sheares hall..

Friday, June 3, 2005 11:20 p.m.

i really wonder who am i to u now.. if i dun take the initiative, i dun think ull even bother to msg me. i shall see.

Sunday, May 29, 2005 09:45 p.m.

my heart goes out to kimi raikkonen.. he was SO CLOSE to winning the race!!

Wednesday, May 25, 2005 04:43 p.m.

You scored as Sleeping Beauty. Your alter ego is Princess Aurora, a.k.a. Sleeping Beauty! You are beautiful and enchanting, and as sweet as ever.

Sleeping Beauty

75%

Cinderella

56%

The Beast

50%

Goofy

44%

Cruella De Ville

38%

Snow White

31%

Pinocchio

31%

Ariel

25%

Peter Pan

25%

Donald Duck

19%

Which Disney Character is your Alter Ego?
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Thursday, May 19, 2005 09:03 p.m.

i had this weird n horrible nightmare last night of people falling to their death from some high rise building n i was standing right next to where they hit the ground.. it was just really weird.. it was like i happened to look up n i saw people falling in the air n i quickly looked away cuz i didnt want to see them hit the ground.. n after that when i looked at their dead bodies on the ground, it was all bloody n meshed up..
im very curious to know the reason why we get nightmares in our sleep n does it mean anything...

Thursday, May 19, 2005 08:57 p.m.

im SO bored!! im alone at home cuz my dad is overseas n my mum is working.. there's no one to talk to n all i do is just sit in front of this com.. :(

Wednesday, May 18, 2005 06:21 p.m.

i dun want to continue like this anymore.. all this is making me feel so miserable n confused n ive had enough of it. i wanna settle this before i go away again.. but how?!?!

Wednesday, May 18, 2005 05:56 p.m.

i love club jazz!! :) cant wait for next tues!

Wednesday, May 18, 2005 05:03 p.m.

i finally drove alone today! all along ive always been driving with my mum around but today, my aunt made me drive her 1 mth old mercedes car from shenton way to novena square to lorong chuan to ang mo kio and from duchess ave to balmoral road n back to duchess ave.. n its not that i wanted to drive.. i didnt have a choice! i was really surprised that she actually made me drive her new car all alone! i was super scared at first cuz i was afraid i might end up scratching her car n its so new.. n the thing that made it worst was i wasnt totally sure of some of the roads.. n i had to answer my hp wihle driving cuz my aunt called me but i used the loudspeaker.. but overall, i still did have fun driving!
n it was kinda comforting that u were msging me while i was driving. :)

my dad is going overseas tmr.. which means more freedom for the next 3 day! :)

my uncle wants me to get my mum to for an x-ray cuz she fell down in the toilet.. n now she's got a bruise around her eye n on her nose.. thank God she didnt hit her eye directly cuz if not she could risk not being able to fly again n that would be the end of her flying career which is her passion n loves so much.

Tuesday, May 17, 2005 11:03 p.m.

help! my body is aching very badly! i want a massage! :( n ive got bruises on both my knees n hip.. i dun like my legs.. ive got cuts n scars n bruises erveywhere now..

Monday, May 16, 2005 01:47 p.m.

i wanna do something stupid now.. but i know ill regret it for the rest of my life..

my mum wants me to throw the last of it away.. should i???

Monday, May 16, 2005 11:44 a.m.

how can u say a person is fatter just by talking to him/her over the phone?!?! i wish u could just be more sensitive towards other people's feelings! unless u did it on purpose.... which i think u did.. cuz im quite sure u wouldnt say such things to certain other people.

Monday, May 16, 2005 11:41 a.m.

my right leg n hand is itching!! but im not sure what bites are they but i got them from langkawi.. n cuz ive been scratching them, they become even redder n bigger.. n there's a bubble forming on my hand now.. feel like bursting it but i know ill end up with a scar..

Saturday, May 14, 2005 11:31 p.m.

i brought the cross n the photo with me..

Saturday, May 14, 2005 10:19 p.m.

just got back from langkawi last night at 11pm..
day1:
took silkair up there n we got upgraded to business class cuz my mum knew the air stewardess on board the plane.. so there were only 3 of us in business class n no one else n we had lots of attention from the air stewards.. anyway when we arrived at our hotel, we got upgraded again from a junior suite to deluxe suite so we were pretty lucky that day.. after checking in, we walked around the hotel n checked out the spa.. all i can say about the hotel is its really meant for couples going for holidays or going on a honeymoon... the ambience n surroundings n all is just really romantic.. haha n i kinda felt like a lightbulb there with my parents. its a small hotel which can hold up to 90 ppl only n its right next to the beach. anyway after that, we rented a car to travel around for the next 4 days.. my dad knows langkawi very well so it was no problem getting around.. we went to my dad's favourite pub "OASIS", that he goes to everytime he's in langkawi n had a few drinks n he introduced the owner n staff working at the pub to me n my mum.. one of the malay stuff called jon was really friendly n he was always talking to my parents. we went back to our hotel for dinner n i got to drink again! :) took a walk by the beach after that with my mum n it started to drizzle so we had to run back to our hotel.

day 2:
my dad brought us around the whole island n showed us certain places then went to royal langkawi yacht club for lunch. he met more of his friends working there n talked to them.. after lunch we went to look at some apartments next to the beach. my dad wants to buy an apartment there where he can retire in future cuz he simply LOVES langkawi. he loves it cuz 2/3 of the island is uninhabited n its near the sea n life there is so much more relaxing.. the roads arent like spore too! no traffic jams at all.

we went to oasis for dinner that night n as we were leaving, one of the waiter called me over to the side n said "there's some guy who wants me to pass this namecard to u n so maybe u could call him tmr" n after he finished talking, i knew who that guy was cuz i had noticed him while having dinner. anyway it turned out to be a british guy called Simon Buxton who was in his late twenties n was a diver.. he wrote a msg on his name card "pls call me tmr. would love to speak to u". after the waiter passed me his namecard, i turned to look at him n he waved at me so i just waved back n i was laughing n by then my mum had found out abt this 'admirer' haha.. i thought he was quite good looking actually haha. anyway, my mum told my dad abt this admirer but he didnt say much.

day 3:
went to see a waterfall, sat on the cablecar n went all the way up to the top of the mountain, went jet skiing with my mum n it was fun! after that we had our shower n went for a spa massage n facial. it was alright. anyway when i got back to to my hotel rm, my dad told me more abt my admirer cuz my dad had gone to oasis for drinks while my mum n i were jet skiing n jon had told my dad that simon was actually staying in thailand but he had gotten a girl into some truoble n had run away n went to langkawi n now he was asking around in langkawi to see if anyone could smuggle him back into thailand cuz he had a shop or some business there.. haha n after hearing it i kinda pitied him.. y did he get himself into such a mess in the first place.. but i still think he's good looking!! haha.. had dinner at our hotel again since it was our last night there.. got to drink again n my mum got drunk! haha it was really amusing to see her like that n the way she was talking to my dad! my dad had to take away her wine glass cuz if she drank anymore she wouldnt be able to walk at all so he gave it to me to finish it. :)but i kinda felt extra again.. had to help my mum up to the room after that..

day 4:
went to see another apartment again in the morning.. then wanted to go jet skiing again but we couldnt go out cuz the waves were too big n it was dangerous.. jon didnt allow us to go out.. i was so sad cuz i was looking forward to it.. so we had lunch at the pub n it was really really windy!! then jon told me that simon had came by again the night before to see if i was around. went back to our hotel after that n we took another walk by the beach n went swimming. had to pack up after our shower to check out n my dad didnt want to leave.. he wanted to stay another 3 more days but we had to come back cuz its my bro's bday today. anyway we ended spending abt 4 hrs at the airport n i was bored to death n i was stoning.. but i also managed to buy some clothes there too! :)

so thats it to my short holiday.. oh ya n i nearly threw up on th way back on the plane cuz there was so much turbulence!!!!! ive never experienced that much turbulence on a plane b4.. but ive always been prone to air sickness anyway.. so the flight back wasnt a very nice one.. was feeling very uncomfortable the whole night even when i got home n was lying on my bed..

Monday, May 9, 2005 12:09 p.m.

im going to langkawi tmr with my parents.. i dun know why but im not really excited abt going.. i guess its partly because my bro wont be with me.. the only good thing is that i dun have to work. i want to leave singapore but neither do i wanna go anywhere.. argh i dun know why im feeling this way..

Monday, May 2, 2005 11:14 p.m.

i wish u hadnt come to m place when my dog was put down.. i wish all of u had left me alone to be with my dog..

n y did u have to ask me on that day.. n y did i say yes.. i wich it all hadnt happened.. cuz it adds to the pain when i think of my dog.. id give up anything just to have my dog back by my side.. but i know that its impossible.

Sunday, May 1, 2005 09:51 p.m.

i miss my dog alot!! :( i just cant move on.. i really hate myself for not spending more time with her the day that she went away.. instead i was playing monoply with dara, tim n dingyuan in my room n i only went down to say goodbye when my mum was gonna take her to the vet.. n i didnt even go with my mum to the vet.. i really hate myself now.. i want my dog back so so much! i wish i could see her just one more time n she'll come walking to me shaking her tail.... i hate myself!

Wednesday, April 27, 2005 08:12 p.m.

I passed my driving test!!!!! :))))) im so happy now!! haha.. anyway after my test, i went to meet my dad at The Oz Bar at tanglin shopping centre to celebrate.. haha n my dad's friend who is a professor in a uni in UK bought me drinks.. n it was my first time that i drank till i was giddy n couldnt walk straight haha.. n it didnt help that i drank on an empty stomach.. it felt damn funny n weird trying to walk properly.. n i was walking super slowly to get to the toilet. then after that, we went next door to eat at some jap restaurant n the food was really good!! but very ex too!!

today was my first time going drinking with my dad at a pub n we talked about quite alot of stuff too.. haha n i found out some things abt my dad that i better not write here too... :)

Saturday, April 23, 2005 08:23 p.m.

argh i wanna complain about zara clothes!! it sucks!!! its workmanship n quality is so poor!! i just bought 2 polymide spaghetti tops today n they are SUPPOSED to be of the same size(they only have one size for that top)... BUT when i came home n tried it on, it was completely different!! one was tight while the other one was too big n didnt fit nicely!! but im too lazy to go back n change it...

Thursday, April 21, 2005 09:06 p.m.

now i know where i stand in ur heart..
n u couldnt even say "bye".. i just want to forget everything..

Thursday, April 21, 2005 08:24 p.m.

if we were together, you wouldnt have carried me..

if only u could understand n read my mind... cuz i dun unnderstand myself.

Thursday, April 21, 2005 06:21 p.m.

i cant take it anymore. it just hurts so much.. the thought of it really makes me wanna end my life.. i dun want u to ..... argh nvm...

Sunday, April 17, 2005 04:36 p.m.

im just so glad im out of CJC!! u know why.. cuz its just full of backstabbers & slanderers!! i cant stand it when people talk behind ur back n say things about u that are TOTALLY not true! i have no words to describe how im feeling now.. im just totally disgusted with such people.. well n the thing that makes it worst is this person or group of people who has been spreading these untrue things abt me is from my own class!! so for at least the past 18 mths, people have been thinking im ........ well not that i really care what they think abt me now but im just REALLY shocked.

Wednesday, April 13, 2005 10:00 p.m.

today i just read another 2 more articles on motorcyclists getting into accidents.. i just wish u wouldnt take that damn license!!

Monday, April 11, 2005 08:45 p.m.

I HATE SMOKERS!! i think smoking is a total turn off!! n smokers just cant seem to give a damn about the people around them or their loved ones.. if u really cared, u wldnt smoke n harm both yourself n those around u.

And i dun understand why people want to risk their lives by riding a motorbike.. i just read in the straits times today that two motorcyclists died in exactly the same way - but in separate accidents - on saturday. they were run over by oncoming vehicles, after being flung off their motorbikes. i think riding a motorbike is so damn dangerous.. so what if it makes travelling so much more convenient for u?!?! whats the point if ure just gonna get run over by a vehicle one day.. of course im not saying that it will happen to everyone who rides a motorbike.. but why take the chance?? would u be happy knowing that ur friends n loved ones are grieving over ur death if u did die from a motorbike accident?!

Monday, April 11, 2005 08:23 p.m.

i still havent written the essay n tmr is the closing date for smu.. ahhh should i just forget it n not apply?? well it looks like it.. i just cant seem to write essays anymore.. :(

and i just burnt my hand!! why am i so clumsy?!?!

Friday, April 8, 2005 08:37 p.m.

sigh.. the army has taken all my guy friends away!! :( i actually never thought of it until last night when hong ming msged me n told me he was enlisting today n asked me to take care n stuff... now we wont get to meet up so often..

anyway just realised that ive been working everyday this week n havent taken a single day of leave. haha im so proud of myself cuz usually im always taking at least 2 days leave..

the 2 big bruises on my body still arent going away!! the one on my butt is the worst! its huge n the colour is just disgusting haha.. n if ure wondering how i got these 2 big bruises, its cuz i slipped n fell down the damn staircase at my condo! it was so embarrassing!! luckily only my mum saw me fall.. n my butt was hurting for the rest of the day! i need to get a neew pair of slippers before i fall again..

Sunday, April 3, 2005 10:27 p.m.

im so glad smu has extended its deadline from 4 april to 12 april!! cuz i havent written the damn essay on my achievements! i dun want to apply for smu but my mum insists!! i dun want to go to smu.. ahhh!! somehow i think ill never get down to writting the essay even if they extend the closing date again haha.. im such a lazy bum..

Friday, March 25, 2005 08:23 p.m.

oh my goodness.. i cant believe CJC's entry cut-off is now 13 points!! i got a shock when i read it in the the Straits Times.. with the points that id got 'O' levels, i would have just barely made it in..

NUS is so slow in replying my email!! what kind of service is this?! they cant even answer a simple question of mine..

Wednesday, March 23, 2005 08:37 p.m.

talking to u is just so difficult.. i like but yet dislike talking to u.

Wednesday, March 23, 2005 12:42 p.m.

finally ive completed all my driving lessons and ive signed up for my practical test.. its on the 27 of april.. i hope i dun forget how to drive within this 1 mth.. i really hope to pass on my first time! haha

i need to start working again or im gonna be broke soon.. bought a new pair of rollerblades and repaired my bicycle :)

Monday, March 21, 2005 06:59 p.m.

if u want something, u gotta work for it. if u are just gonna sit there n wait for it to come to u, then im sorry, ure not gonna get what u want!

Thursday, March 3, 2005 09:16 p.m.

im just really heartbroken that u cant keep to the very first promise that u ever made to me.. even though things are no longer the same, cant u still keep to ur promise?? unless u dun even regard me as a friend anymore... :(

sigh it really hurts...

im damn scared about tmr... what am i gonna do if i dun do well?? im gonna .............. i wish u could be there for me without having to ask.. but i know its impossible..

Monday, February 28, 2005 09:15 p.m.

crap i wasted about $90 today.. :( i wasted $6o cuz i didnt go for my driving lesson in the morning & $30 on going to see a doctor.. all because i got food poisoning!!
n since i was all alone at home i had to make my own way to see the doctor n i took 15 mins to walk to the bus stop when i normally only take 5 mins.. i was walking super slowly cuz my stomach was hurting alot!!

but i still dun really understand how i got food poisoning cuz i ate nearly the same food as my mum for dinner..

ahhh im so worried about my 'A's...what if i dun do well??? i think ill go commit suicide..

Friday, February 18, 2005 08:49 p.m.

i finally received my letter from the traffic polie n i passed my BTT. :) i cant wait to start driving!!
i ended work early today n it was so slack... went for a viewing at the condo opp mine then went to the customer's place to wait for the banker to go down n approve a loan for the customer.. then my aunt dropped me off at her office at HDB hub in toa payoh where i had to do some stuff n go to popular to buy files for her. i feel as if im her p.a. haha then she finally came back abt 4 to pick me up n send me home.. the good thing abt working for her is that i get picked up in the morning n sent home after work. :) but now ive got to go read up a file of notes about a condo in bukit timah.

i went for a haircut with my mum after i got home.. i dun exactly like it cuz my fringe is too short n it cant be tied up!!

i think my appetite is slowing coming back again.. but i dun want it too.. cuz i wanna lose weight!! haha.. anyway im looking forward to tmr! cant wait to meet up with classmates that i havent seen in quite awhile!! HANNAH WONG!!!!!!!! why are u always not free during class gatherings??? can we please meet up soon before the release of our 'A' level results?? :)

Thursday, February 17, 2005 09:25 p.m.

one day ure just gonna drive me to my death bed.

Tuesday, February 15, 2005 01:30 p.m.

No one understands me at all, including myself. i dun even know why im putting myself through all this. i cant take it anymore!

Friday, February 11, 2005 03:20 p.m.

could someone please tell me what to do now............. i really dun know how i feel n i dun know what to do.. i dun know what i want. i just dun want to regret whatever decision i make.

i wish i could just kill myself and end all my troubles.

Thursday, February 3, 2005 11:31 p.m.

hey ppl.. ive resigned from zara n my last 2 days are tmr n mon.. so do come visit me ok?

Monday, January 10, 2005 09:32 p.m.

im dreading work.. i want to relax at home.. i miss going out with friends.. i feel as if i have no more life.. there are just so many more things i want to do in life while im still young but i feel so tied down by everything. :(

Sunday, January 9, 2005 09:42 p.m.

i sometimes find online blogs pointless cuz u can never write everything u feel down here for fear of someone reading it.

yes i know i havent updated in a long time.. so i shall give a brief update..
...cant remember much..didnt celebrate xmas this yr, went for brazilian wax,met up with some sec sch friends n had a fun time with them..miss the times spent with them in sec sch.. celebrated nye with tim n dara n their family..stayed over at their chalet n went wild wild wet on new year day..hmmm met ben hil jeremy szuyu n claire n many other freinds at zara who really help brighten up my day while working.. watched "meet the fokers" n "being julia".. bought quite a few clothes n a pair of heels..
ok i think thats enough.. probably wont be updating for a while again.. take care people!

Thursday, December 16, 2004 10:13 p.m.

i miss many of my classmates.. people like sophie, hannah, terence, li qing, sebas, jo and many others.. can we please meet up soon?? but im working n i dun have a fixed scehdule so i dun know when im free.. :(

Thursday, December 16, 2004 09:27 p.m.

ive just barely started work and i already took 2 days mc.. think my manager and colleagues will have a bad impression of me.. :( why must i fall sick just when i start work?!?! i really hope i wont have to work on xmas, new year's eve and new year...

i still havent signed up for my driving test yet.. i dun know how to get to the centre.. :(

Thursday, December 9, 2004 11:58 p.m.

prom photos are up in my photo gallery.. yes i know im supre slow.. haha.. looking forward to shopping tmr with my mum!! cuz i hope she will pay for me... im broke! :(

Monday, December 6, 2004 08:34 p.m.

i miss my cousin nikolaus so so much!! i havent seen him in so so many months.. and now he's leaving for america on wed so i guess ill have to wait till he comes back.. but i want to see him now!!! i just sometimes feel very sad for him.. he's the only child n there's other stuff happening in his family and he is only pri 2..but he's so smart!! and i thinbk for his age he's quite good at the com..

im quite troubled n confused now.. cant decide on what job to take up.. and ive got quite a few things to do.. and one of them is signing up for a drving license *ahem!!!!*.. haha u should know who u are busy woman!!!! ive got a job interview at zara tmr then ill be having lunch at Hyatt hotel tmr with my dad.. then ive got to go down to toa payoh to meet my aunt to do some part time telemarketing work.. but the pay is damn good!! haha.. and the good thing is since im working for my aunt, i can choose my working hrs and whether i feel like turning up so i can get 2 jobs.. and in the mean time ill go apply for better jobs and relief teaching.. called up about 6 schools this morning and i seriously hate talking to those admin staff ppl.. either they are damn rude and cant be bothered to entertain u or they are so dead and talk so softly.. of all the 6 women i talked to, the nicest was from my very own sec sch.. :) also turned down the job offer at nooch cuz its pay is only $4.80 an hr.. was supposed to start work on wed.. feel quite glad that i dun have to do waitressing now.. haha..

Friday, December 3, 2004 09:39 p.m.

oh ya i saw a handbag at marks & spencers at wheelock today that i really like!!! its black with abit of pink on it.. argh i want to get it but i know i cant... :((((((

Friday, December 3, 2004 09:28 p.m.

im in no mood to go for the class bbq anymore.. i dun wish to see anyone right now...

Friday, December 3, 2004 09:27 p.m.

i havent signed up for the driving license yet! :( i want to go do it soon...

i hate looking for jobs... its so tiring.. n u have got to be thick skinned.. went down to the modelling agency for an interview but it doesnt look very trustworthy.. and i dun wish to get myself into more trouble... i feel like such a spoilt kid.. ive never gone out to work before and have no work experience.. all this while ive always been depending on my parents for all my pocket money.. and im so immature n not streetwise and gets easily conned!! argh!!!

i guess teaching will be the safest job for a stupid idiot like me.. n he hates me too! i just feel like breaking down now... nearly broke down while in town today.. argh!! someone just kill me please!!!!! NOW!!!!

Friday, December 3, 2004 09:19 p.m.

i havent signed up for the driving license yet! :( i want to go do it soon...

Friday, December 3, 2004 09:13 p.m.

:( today is one of my worst days ive ever had.. u know how some people say that when someone is dying but has a very strong will to wake up and live, they will wake up??.. but if i had met with an accident today i dun think id ever wake up.. id rather just die and leave this world..

Tuesday, November 30, 2004 10:19 p.m.

adopt your own virtual pet!

Tuesday, November 30, 2004 10:15 p.m.

my mum sent me that email about burgers n when i saw it, it reminded me so much about econs and i didnt want to read it.. haha so ive put it up here for u ppl to go read if ure bored but its quite messy cuz im too lazy to put it in paragraphs..

Tuesday, November 30, 2004 10:14 p.m.

The Big Mac Index Food for thought May 27th 2004 From The Economist print edition The world economy looks very different once countries' output is adjusted for differences in prices HOW fast is the world economy growing? How important is China as an engine of growth? How much richer is the average person in America than in China? The answers to these huge questions depend crucially on how you convert the value of output in different countries into a common currency. Converting national GDPs into dollars at market exchange rates is misleading. Prices tend to be lower in poor economies, so a dollar of spending in China, say, is worth a lot more than a dollar in America. A better method is to use purchasing-power parities (PPP), which take account of price differences. The theory of purchasing-power parity says that in the long run exchange rates should move towards rates that would equalise the prices of an identical basket of goods and services in any two countries. This is the thinking behind The Economist's Big Mac index. Invented in 1986 as a light-hearted guide to whether currencies are at their �correct� level, our �basket� is a McDonalds' Big Mac, which is produced locally in almost 120 countries. The Big Mac PPP is the exchange rate that would leave a burger in any country costing the same as in America. The first column of our table converts the local price of a Big Mac into dollars at current exchange rates. The average price of a Big Mac in four American cities is $2.90 (including tax). The cheapest shown in the table is in the Philippines ($1.23), the most expensive in Switzerland ($4.90). In other words, the Philippine peso is the world's most undervalued currency, the Swiss franc its most overvalued. The second column calculates Big Mac PPPs by dividing the local currency price by the American price. For instance, in Japan a Big Mac costs �262. Dividing this by the American price of $2.90 produces a dollar PPP against the yen of �90, compared with its current rate of �113, suggesting that the yen is 20% undervalued. In contrast, the euro (based on a weighted average of Big Mac prices in the euro area) is 13% overvalued. But perhaps the most interesting finding is that all emerging-market currencies are undervalued against the dollar. The Chinese yuan, on which much ink has been spilled in recent months, looks 57% too cheap. The Big Mac index was never intended as a precise forecasting tool. Burgers are not traded across borders as the PPP theory demands; prices are distorted by differences in the cost of non-tradable goods and services, such as rents. Yet these very failings make the Big Mac index useful, since looked at another way it can help to measure countries' differing costs of living. That a Big Mac is cheap in China does not in fact prove that the yuan is being held massively below its fair value, as many American politicians claim. It is quite natural for average prices to be lower in poorer countries and therefore for their currencies to appear cheap. The prices of traded goods will tend to be similar to those in developed economies. But the prices of non-tradable products, such as housing and labour-intensive services, are generally much lower. A hair-cut is, for instance, much cheaper in Beijing than in New York. One big implication of lower prices is that converting a poor country's GDP into dollars at market exchange rates will significantly understate the true size of its economy and its living standards. If China's GDP is converted into dollars using the Big Mac PPP, it is almost two-and-a-half-times bigger than if converted at the market exchange rate. Meatier and more sophisticated estimates of PPP, such as those used by the IMF, suggest that the required adjustment is even bigger. Weight watchers The global economic picture thus looks hugely different when examined through a PPP lens. Take the pace of global growth. Anyone wanting to calculate this needs to bundle together countries' growth rates, with each one weighted according to its share of world GDP. Using weights based on market exchange rates, the world has grown by an annual average of only 1.9% over the past three years. Using PPP, as the IMF does, global growth jumps to a far more robust 3.1% a year. The main reason for this difference is that using PPP conversion factors almost doubles the weight of the emerging economies, which have been growing much faster. Measured at market exchange rates, emerging economies account for less than a quarter of global output. But measured using PPP they account for almost half. Small wonder, then, that global economic rankings are dramatically transformed when they are done on a PPP basis rather than market exchange rates. America remains number one, but China leaps from seventh place to second, accounting for 13% of world output. India jumps into fourth place ahead of Germany, and both Brazil and Russia are bigger than Canada. Similarly, market exchange rates also exaggerate inequality. Using market rates, the average American is 33 times richer than the average Chinese; on a PPP basis, he is �only� seven times richer. The way in which economies are measured also has a huge impact on which country has contributed most to global growth in recent years. Using GDP converted at market rates China has accounted for only 7% of the total increase in the dollar value of global GDP over the past three years, compared with America's 25%. But on PPP figures, China has accounted for almost one-third of global real GDP growth and America only 13%. This helps to explain why commodity prices in general and oil prices in particular have been surging, even though growth has been relatively subdued in the rich world since 2000. Emerging economies are not only growing much faster than rich economies and are more intensive in their use of raw materials and energy, but they also account for a bigger chunk of global output if measured correctly. As Charles Dumas, an economist at Lombard Street Research, neatly puts it, even if a Chinese loaf is a quarter of the cost of a loaf in America, it uses the same amount of flour. All measures of PPP are admittedly imperfect. But most economists agree that they give a more accurate measure of the relative size of economies than market exchange rates�and a better understanding of some of the dramatic movements in world markets. The humble burger should be part of every economist's diet. Copyright � 2004 The Economist Newspaper and The Economist Group. All rights reserved.

Tuesday, November 30, 2004 12:24 p.m.

To tim, dara, hong ming, gary, daryl, jason and chong beng: thanks so much for coming and spending my bday with me last night! i really enjoyed myself!! espcially with hong ming entertaining all of us nearly the whole night! haha.. n i just realised that i was quite lucky cuz i didnt have to do any of those forfeits.. anyway to all others who had wished me a happy birthday in one way or another, thanks alot too! :)

now i just feel quite bad cuz i spent the whole day out n i only came home at about 1145 and my parents had actually bought me a bday cake.. but my mum had a midnight flight last night so when i came home she had already left.. so now my cake is still untouched with the candles in the plastic bag next to it.. ahhhh i feel so bad.. think my dad was quite sad although he didnt say anything..

haiz dara wants me to go over to her house later but im too lazy.. i want her to come to my place!!! i need her to do french manicure for me.. think ill just go over for awhile n then come home.. i feel quite bad that i havent been spending much time at home with my parents.. and i still feel bad about the cake..

Sunday, Novembeber 29, 2004 08:05 p.m.

BORING!!!!!!!!

Thursday, November 25, 2004 10:54 p.m.

haiz im feeling very down now.. i dun like my life.. everything is so screwed up.. i just want to hide in a corner of my room and not have to face anyone n just rot or starve or whatever to death... i just want to die..

Thursday, November 26, 2004 07:26 p.m.

i want to go jogging... but its dark already n my mum will scream if she finds out i went..

i dun exactly like being alone at home with nothing to do cuz i start thinking about the past years and it brings back very bad memories.. i wish my dog could come back to me.. ill always hate myself for not bringing my dog down for a walk ealier before she fell off the balcony.. why was i so lazy... i remember going to my room to change when i heard my mum scream n i ran out to see what had happened and there i saw my dog lying still on the road.. more than one year has already passed but it still haunts me to this day n i wonder if ill ever be able to forgive myself.. i wish i could turn back time to prevent that incident from happening.. i just hope my dog is happy wherever she is now..

Thursday, November 25, 2004 07:01 p.m.

I MISS LISA!!!come back to me... :(

i kinda miss ballet lessons.. i miss going for dance camps..

Wednesday, November 24, 2004 08:19 p.m.

i feel so lost now that the A levels are over.. i realised this morning that it would probably be my last time wearing my school uniform n this feeling hit me again when i was changing out of it.. i seriously think im just gonna rot at home till i find a job.. and i dun even know what job i want.. ive already got the license to be a relief teacher n all ive got to do now is call up schools i think.. but i was thinking of getting another job too cuz i think i suck at talking to a large group of students..

i just feel so lost right now... n i dun feel the freedom.. i keep thinking i should go offline now to study.. argh!!

well at least ive tidied up my room already and i dun have books all over my table.. there are so many things i want to do and get but i need money!! :( sometimes i wish i hadnt chosen to go for the diving course cuz then my dad would give me $500 instead.

Saturday, December 21, 2002 03:52 p.m.

adopt your own virtual pet!

Wednesday, November 17, 2004 05:46 p.m.

argh!! i feel like killing myself now.. why did i do a question on a topic which i hadnt studied at all?!?! and why did i spend so much time on my first 2 questions that i left a 15 mark qn blank?!?! i think im only gonna get at the mst 5/25 for my last essay.. :(((

i dun wish to continue with the A levels... my body cant take it anymore!!

Saturday, December 14, 2002 08:27 p.m.

my gosh.. i feel so sick now after looking at photos of girls kissing each other.. yucks!!

Saturday, December 14, 2002 08:27 p.m.

my gosh.. i feel so sick now after looking at photos of girls kissing each other.. yucks!! anyone want to look at it? haha..i have the website but i wont put it up here..

Thursday, November 11, 2002 07:29 p.m.

expect the unexpected

Thursday, December 12, 2002 07:15 p.m.

my brother finally completed his ASLC course and he's been posted back to tekong to become a BMT instructor.. haha i cant imagine my bro actually screwing those recruits.. and tim got into safsa! :)

argh 2 more wks to freedom...............cant stand this anymore......

Wednesday, December 4, 2002 12:32 p.m.

24 hrs from now and the GP exam will be over!! i cant wait!! im not gonna do much studying today.. just gonna relax.. i cant seem to remember anything that ive studied at all.. ahhhhh... right now im trying to calm myself down by telling myself that its just gonna be like any other mock test so why stress myself out.. hmm yesterday my dad was talking to me and i thibk he doesnt want me to get stressed out too much by the A's and so he told me that one year is a very short period of time and if ur results arent good u can always retake it again next year.. and he said that since im a november baby its not so bad.. when he said that it was like a load beinf taken off me.. but then at the same time i dun exactly want to go through all this again next year.. i really just want to get it over and done with, but of course with decent results...

Wednesday, November 27, 2002 05:57 p.m.

ARGH!! i officially hate pierce sec sch!! here i am at home trying to study and there they are playing music across their p.a. system and its damn loud!!!!!!! its not music at all!! its NOISE POLLUTION!! and its been going on none stop since i came home from lunch! its already 6 plus now and the damn music is still being played! cant those students just go home!! its all their fault that i havent studied at all today..

Thursday, October 21, 2004 08:07 p.m.

argh!! i just came online and my mum is nagging at me already!! she's so irritating.. i need to relax u know?!?!

i went to see a doctor this morning and so now according to the doc, i need to eat more red meat and sleep more.. wth?!? im already sleeping more than the sufficient 8 hrs and i eat enough meat! i dun want to get fat! and the doctor even said that all this stress from exams is one factor thats causing my problem but the thing is i havent exactly been feeling stressed. and if my problem doesnt get better then ill have to go back for a blood test.. :(

anyway after seeing the doc, my dad had to rush off to meet a client and so he left me outside liat towers.. i was so tempted to walk into zara but since i was alone, i decided not to.. so i decided to be a good girl and go home straight.. :)

Saturday, October 16, 2004 01:53 p.m.

i guess i could say that this has been a rather eventful week.. had grad day yesterday.. n tim gave me a surprise on thurs night.. was talking to him on the phone when he suddenly asked me to look downstairs and there he was standing directly below my window with a sunflower in his hand.. haha.. so now i can add this to my collection of my flowers. haha. but the sunflower is dying already. :(

Saturday, October 16, 2004 01:41 p.m.

just uploaded the photos that were taken on grad day!

Saturday, October 9, 2004 08:52 p.m.

i was looking through my phone book on my hp just now n i realised that there are 1 or 2 people whom i dun know but i have their numbers.. hmm its so weird.. how on earth did their numbers get onto my phone.. there's one person with name "nah." n the number is 91266967.. the name is so weird n i dun know who that person is.. im tempted to sms the person n ask who it is..

Saturday, October 9, 2004 08:52 p.m.

Saturday, October 2, 2004 09:07 p.m.

i guess ill have no more late nights.. my mum suddenly noticed my big black eye bags which she hadnt noticed before until i was walked into my house just now.. and then she had to go tell my dad about it.. so now i need to be asleep by 11pm cuz if i keep having these eye bags it will soon become permanent.. n i dun want that to happen!!

anyway.. watched white chicks with tim today.. it was really funny!! but somehow i just couldnt seem to laugh.. dun know whats wrong with me..

told my parents my maths grades n my dad was quite unhappy.. my mum didnt say much.. she just asked me what happened to my stats.. im actually very very very disappointed in myself but what can i do..

Thursday, September 30, 2004 07:21 p.m.

school has just barely started since prelims but im already sick of it for a few reasons which i shall not mention here..

anyway im thinking of closing this blog cuz its useless.. i cant even say what i want to say... well at least tmr i have someone to talk to...

Thursday, September 30, 2004 07:20 p.m.

dun blame people for all this happening cuz u started it yourself!! go do some reflection!!

Thursday, September 30, 2004 07:20 p.m.

dun blame people for all this happening cuz u started it yourself!! go do some reflection!!

Tuesday, September 28, 2004 04:07 p.m.

HYPOCRITE! u totally disgust me!!

shall take u off my mind n go read my book......................

Wednesday, September 22, 2004 05:59 p.m.

argh! something's wrong with my internet server.. i cant seem to come online sometimes.. so i better usee my time carefully when my damn server decides to be nice n let me come online!

Monday, September 20, 2004 06:00 p.m.

i seriously hate people who only how to make use of others!! when they think ure of no use to them anymore, they'll just "dump" u aside.. then when they realise that there is no one else around, they'll pretend to be nice and friendly to u! HYPOCRITES!! id rather not have any friends than have such people as my "friends".

its just amazing how something small can get to someone till they have changed so much.

Saturday, September 18, 2004 07:44 p.m.

i enjoyed myself today! :) went for lunch with run yan, dara n tim then we went to watch "dodgeball".. its really funny! anyway im very happy with the outcome of today.. haha.. only u three ppl know why.. hahahahaha... n run yan said i was elegant! haha.. anyway shall not say anymore here..

well i better get studying soon cuz ive been slacking away ever since tues.. ive got 1 day to complete 3 geog chaps!!

Tuesday, September 14, 2004 06:16 p.m.

there are so many weird messages on my tag board n ive no idea who they are from.. its so irritating.. if u want to say something then at least have the courtesy to let me know who u are! what's wrong with doing something so simple?? somehoe i have a feeling that its the same person who has been writing all these weird messages but using different nick names..

anyway, im glad my prelims are halfway over n i have a few days break now.. gonna catch up on my sleep.. had a headache yesterday n i think its cuz i havent been getting enough sleep.. shall not talk about my papers n just wait for my results..anyway, cheer up hannah.. dun let 2 papers get u down.. dun give up! i have faith in u that ull do well! :)

Sunday, September 12, 2004 01:23 p.m.

ive added more photos to my photo gallery which were taken during this past 1 week..

screw prelims and all exams! i want my beauty sleep!!

Tuesday, September 7, 2004 09:01 p.m.

someone please shoot me.. i havent gotten down to studying yet since the break started!! wasted my weekend away cuz of some stuff bothering me and had a BBQ on sun so when i got home i was too tired to do anything but yet couldnt sleep.. went out shopping with my mum yesterday and got 2 tops.. :) and when i got home i slept till dinner and went online and ended up playing solitaire with kim.. then talked to tim for nearly 2 hrs and by then i was so tired..

had a fun and relaxing time today swimming and tanning with dara and sancia.. went to the sauna too and took lots of photos.. cant wait to see it!! and my shoulders and face are burnt now.. just hope my skin doesnt peel..

i really got to start studying soon... im already halfway in my grave.. i really wonder when will i ever learn my lesson about last minute studying.. :(

Friday, September 3, 2004 12:08 p.m.

im so confused now...
why must all this happen when my prelims n A levels are just round the corner.. :(

Tuesday, August 31, 2004 08:16 p.m.

there's so much i want to say but yet i cant cuz i dun know who might just read my blog.. sometimes i find no point in having a blog cuz i cant say what i wanna say.. its so irritating at times..

anyway the teacher's day concert was really good! its the best school concert ive ever had since i entered any school! the atmosphere was great n u could really see the school spirit.. but sadly, this would also be my last school concert id have.. :( im goona miss cj once i graduate..

oh and i heard that joyce actually has a blog!! but i cant remember the website..

somehow i feel as if im gonna go into depression soon if im not careful.. n ive no idea why..

its amazing at what one dream can just do to you.

Saturday, August 21, 2004 08:03 p.m.

had maths mock exam today n i could only complete one question out of 14!! so now im just waiting till mrs loke marks my paper n changes her mind about my maths being good..

ive no mood to blog..

im slowly beginning to believe that all christians are hypocrites..

Sunday, August 8, 2004 09:00 p.m.

does anyone ever chat on mirc now???

Thursday, August 5, 2004 07:45 p.m.

i guess things between us can never be the same again like in the past.. all i can say to you now is im glad u have found that someone.. at least that "someone" will always be there for u unlike me.. sometimes i wonder whether is it u or me who has changed.. cuz being with u doesnt feel the same anymore..

anyway these past 2 days in school has been quite enjoyable despite all the stress.. :) thanks!

Friday, July 23, 2004 10:01 p.m.

there's just so much i want to say but i dun know how... i feel so troubled by so many things n i feel as if im gonna break down soon.. and after reading people's blogs it just makes me feel worse.. like how friendless i am and stuff.. n yes i know ive no one to blame except myself.. and whoever reads this, please dun come telling me stuff like "u can always talk to me" or "ill awlays be here for u" etc.. cuz ull just be lying..
i just dun know how to be a friend...

i hate it that i have no more close friends to talk to or share my problems.. argh i dun want to talk about this anymore.. anyway ive never really liked sharing my problems so why do i need them for....

Friday, July 23, 2004 10:01 p.m.

Thursday, July 22, 2004 06:44 p.m.

u know what?! you just pissed me off!! such a hypocrite! shall not say anymore cuz ure not worth talking about!

Thursday, July 22, 2004 06:37 p.m.

haha! :)anyway im not gonna mention anything about it here! hahaha.. sshhhhh....

Sunday, July 11, 2004 09:35 p.m.

had a fun day today with hannah, sophie, claire n terence, running around the whole of the CBD area.. from ps to clarke quay to boat quay to lau pa sa to esplanade to chimes(not very sure how to spell) to art museum to istana to tanglin mall to turism board to university of chicargo(or something like that) n finally back to ps... was so damn tired at the end of it... but amazingly i havent slept at all since i got home.. but i shall try to sleep by 1030 tonight so i shall not add in the details about urban quest.. think im gonna have bad muscle cramps tmr.. :(

I LOVE MY BROTHER!! :)

Friday, July 9, 2004 08:54 p.m.

Argh!! i feel like killing myself!! All this econs tuition stuff is getting on my nerves... Now not only i cant find a tuition partner, but my dad wants me to have tuition twice a week... its like everything is so not confirmed but i want to get started asap!!

does anyone want to take econs tuition??

Anyway i bought a new pair of track shoes today.. its a white n red nike shoe.. i think its so not me cuz ive always been wearing blue shoes.. but who cares...

Tuesday, July 6, 2004 02:51 p.m.

oh my gosh... i cant believe i actually forgot i had no more maid.. i left school today assuming that i would have lunch ready at home once i got back.. i mean i dun think about food when i go home so i guess i totally forgot about lunch.. so just when i got down my bus n began walking home, i saw my mum drive out n stop at the traffic light.. then i saw a woman sitting next to her in the car n i was just about to wonder who she was when i suddenly realised it was the part-time maid that my mum had hired.. and at that moment i also remembered that no one was at home n i would have no lunch! i felt so blur n stupid at that moment!! i hate this... i hate not having a maid.. besides all the chores that she did, i also have no one to give me massages when im sick anymore... :( so anyway, i ended up eating some bun, cheese and a chocolate bar for lunch... its so pathetic... maybe one day ill eat fruits for lunch.. haha..

Tuesday, July 6, 2004 02:51 p.m.

*you*
Sunday, July 4, 2004 10:56 p.m.

sometimes i wonder whether do i really know you.
sometimes i feel that we've just drifted so far away.
sometimes i feel that i no longer know you.
but i know i can only blame myself for what's happened to us.

Sunday, July 4, 2004 08:13 p.m.

:( my bro just went back to camp.. so sad.. i miss him so much.. i hardly got to talk to him this weekend.. he looked so sad when he left the house... haiz.. hope everything goes well for him..

Anyway i had a great long weekend.. with hannah coming over to my place on thurs, going out with tim on fri n catching "spider man", then tim came over to my place on sat for a swim before going over to my aunt's place for dinner... played dai dee the whole night with tim, cheryl, kim n my bro... and today, i had my dental app in the morning, then went for youth fellowship and met tim for lunch at his club... i wish all this didnt have to end.. im dreading school and i dun really wish to get back my results...
anyway for now, im looking forward to tmr!! going to sentosa tmr with dara!! :)

Thursday, July 1, 2004 02:34 p.m.

YAY! i just helped Sarah to archive her page :) so now, it's no longer that long! We had math today and math was difficult. super difficult. i couldn't solve the vectors and i didn't sketch my graphs. i hope i pass!

BUT. Thank goodness the exams are over! went out for pratas after school and now we're going to play tennis and swim! i hope it doesn't rain!

ah! silly Sarah wore a tennis skirt to make herself feel pro. haha SARAH! wear shorts!

hey i dun have to wear a tennis skirt to make myself look pro k! i already am! haha.